Lesbian yang termasuk dalam varian orientasi seksual yang menyimpang dapat mengalami berbagai masalah, termasuk penolakan keluarga, penolakan sosial, dan konflik batin yang membuat mereka merasa seolah hidup tidak memiliki kebermaknaan. Jika kebermaknaan hidup tidak dapat terpuaskan, biasanya lesbian akan merasa hampa, seolah tidak ada gunanya untuk hidup. Penelitian ini bertujuan untuk mengetahui lebih dalam tentang gambaran makna hidup lesbian di Kabupaten Sleman, Yogyakarta. Penelitian ini menggunakan metode kualitatif dengan pendekatan fenomenologis deskriptif. Subjek penelitian ini adalah empat orang lesbian yang tinggal di Kabupaten Sleman dan menjalani atau sebelumnya pernah melakukan hubungan lesbian. Pengambilan subjek menggunakan teknik purposive sampling, dengan sumber data yang di ambil atas pertimbangan tertentu. Pengambilan data dalam penelitian ini melalui wawancara mendalam.
Hasil penelitian ini menunjukkan meskipun mereka menjadi lesbian keempat informan tetap berusaha bangkit dan menentukan tujuan hidup serta memahami makna atas kejadian yang dialaminya. Hal ini yang dibahas terkait proses meaning of life yang berbeda-beda dalam informan. Terdapat beberapa proses dalam meaning of life seperti tahap derita, tahap penerimaan diri, tahap penemuan makna hidup, tahap realisasi makna dan tahap kehidupan bermakna dimana semua informan mengalami proses tersebut. Sebagai lesbian informan menemukan makna hidupnya dengan menjalani hidup sesuai keinginannya dan melakukan adaptasi/ sosialisasi dengan teman maupun lingkungan sekitar supaya mereka dapat diterima kehadirannya, serta mencoba menerapkan masukan dari teman-temannya dalam hidup informan. Pemberian dukungan oleh teman dekat infoman membuat informan bisa menghayati dan merasakan kebahagiaan di hidupnya.
Kata Kunci : Orientasi Seksual, Lesbian, Kebermaknaan Hidup

ABSTRACT:
Lesbians are still seen as sexually deviant, so there is often rejection in society. Lesbians who belong to deviant sexual orientation variants can experience various problems, including family rejection, social rejection, and inner conflicts that make them feel as if life has no meaning. If the meaning of life cannot be satisfied, lesbians will usually feel empty, as if there is no point in living. This research aims to find out more about the meaning of lesbian life in Sleman Regency, Yogyakarta.
This research uses a qualitative method with a descriptive phenomenological approach. The subjects of this research were four lesbians who lived in Sleman Regency and were having or had previously had lesbian relationships. Subjects were taken using a purposive sampling technique, with data sources taken based on certain considerations. Data collection in this research was through in-depth interviews.
The results of this research show that even though they are lesbians, the four informants still try to get up and determine their life goals and understand the meaning of the events they experienced. This was discussed in relation to the different meaning of life processes in the informants. There are several processes in the meaning of life such as the suffering stage, self-acceptance stage, discovery of the meaning of life stage, meaning realization stage and meaningful life stage where all informants experience this process. As a lesbian, the informant finds meaning in her life by living her life according to her wishes and adapting/socializing with friends and the surrounding environment so that their presence can be accepted, as well as trying to apply input from her friends in the informant's life. Providing support by the informant's close friends allows the informant to appreciate and feel happiness in his life.
Keywords: Sexual Orientation, Lesbian, Meaning of Life